the only thing to fear is fear itself

im afraid of spiders. im afraid of heights. im afraid of drugs. im afraid of change. Im afraid of what could have been. Afraid of what we could of had if i just said hi. Im afraid of girls. Im afraid of commitment. Afraid of relationships. Im afraid of driving. Im afraid to be alone. Im scared of being alone. Im afraid to say hi. Afraid to look. Im afraid to give you a look. Afraid your not looking back.

Im afraid of losing...

Afraid of death. Afraid of living. Im scared its to late. To late to change.

Why do we get scared. Why is it an emotion. It is so hard to face your fears but it will make you stronger. Who says it will make you stronger. How do we know that that saying is true.
How do we know if anything is true. People lie everyday, cheat everyday... That can be scary..

[IM AFRAID OF THE TRUTH]

give your brain an excersise (things to think about)

if we didn't exist would there even be an earth or a sun

What is time

we invented time. time is a manmade thing to keep track of change

we all want money in our life. we all want to be rich. We go through our whole lifes thinking about money and that is our goal but us as humans invented money. Money is just a peice of paper but we give it so much value that it has such an impact on our lives

How far will technology take us... maybe to other galaxies

Are there other galaxies. Do aliens or other beings exist.

Just some things to think about. Our mind is a great thing. I wish i was a little kid again and could imagine all that i wanted and believed it would come true. We lose our imagination as we get older.

Try to keep it alive.

things you should know

my color is yellow
i love oreos
i dont know what love means
i miss my cocoa butter kisses
Nights like this, im a knight like this, sword in my hand, im a fight like this
im still not loving police
read a book and excercise, keep your spirit in
what i see in your eyes words cant come close
fate fell short this time

Schoolboy Q/ Cam Meekins/ Blink-182/ Dre/ Kendrick Lamar

Lets get risky

Life is full of risks. Some risks are not worth it. But some are. Taking a risk can change your life forever for the better or the worst. One risk i am not willing to take is the one that can change my life forever for the worst. My biggest fear is being with the wrong friends at the wrong time and having my life change completely and get in trouble and now have restrictions on my life.

Its Not Worth The Risk

I never want to wake up one morning and realize that i cant reach my fullest potential because i was so caught up in being cool or popular or hip. What i mean by this is that if a group of people you think are so cool and worth your time do something illegal and you are to scared to stand up for yourself and the cops get involved you can get in just as much trouble.

I want freedom

i want to grow up and do whatever i want and go wherever i want and my biggest fear is having that taken away because i was to afraid to just leave...

Love

It all comes down to this moment. Everything we have learned in the passed couple of hours seem like a blur. I never thought we would get to this point. Whenever i am with you i can only think of all that is good about you. I cant find a single flaw. Maybe you have some but i am not willing to look for them... because if i do im afraid that it will make you imperfect. And whenever i think of you all i can see is perfection.

You are perfect. The way your eyes glitter in the sun and your long hair flows in the breeze on a firey sunset night. Everytime i see you my heart is filled with pain. Filled with pain because i know i cannot have you, i know i can never call you mine. And that makes me sad. When i see you in the halls i try to act busy and pretend i do not notice you cause it hurts when i see your beautiful face but then it hits me.. it hits me like a wall of bricks and i realize i will never get that moment back. That is one less time i will be able to say something to you, even if it was just a word.

When i look into your eyes all i see is the good in the world. What people are capable of and what everyone should do in this life. All is see is good in you and couldnt imagine you doing anything wrong. I wish that someday i can find a girl just like you and be able to put my arm around her and let her know that she is safe and secure and that i can call her mine.

Ps. i dont like my writing but ill get ther

crayons

why is it that we lose our sense of creation when we get older? Maybe its because we dont want to get judged and creating things is a form of nerdiness or uncoolness. We create things in many ways. It could be through drawing a picture or taking a picture. It also could be a play in football or making a slam dunk in basketball. 

I think there is more to creating then just making something new. 

Its how it makes you feel and the people who are involved feel. When you see a painting you feel something. Whatever that feeling is its the same if you were watching a sport or doing something you love. 

We create with our hearts and our minds not our fingers

But we still need fingers...... to create

Im here

Today in class we talked about feelings and not being a robot. The question is though how do we know we are human. How do we know? We dont. for all we know we could be robots and robots could be humans and they think that we dont feel and they do. Thats confusing. im human because i have faults and need to be accepted. I think we all do but we are not all willing to admit it. I am excited for this year to write.

intro

Im not a very good writer. Through out my life i have not liked to write or cared for it. So this is me taking a risk and trying something new. its risky